Why making decision is so hard??
Why must there always be choices to let me choose??
I hate choosing and make decision…
Every decision made seem so hard and so insecure, seem to be wrong and scared that I’ll regret of the choice I made later…
Got offer for job oso make me fan…
No offer for job oso make me fan…
Haih….
Now got a job offer from M company…a big shipping company and very famous too…
But the is an office administration job…which I dun really like…but the offer is good and the job location, not much to worry cos have know some frens there that really can help me get familiar with that place…everythg sound nice and good enuf…But, the problem is I know if I accept this job, it would only be a temporary job for me since it is not something I really like…perhaps longest I stay will be 1 year if there is no career advancement…
The 2nd choice is a ‘marketing executive’ position with a jeweler company, subsidiary of RS company…oso quite a famous company. I like this one more….organizing and planning events, promotion and projects…sound so interesting and fun, get to meet people and do different kind of job…maybe it will turn out to be my long-term career…But the problem is, this interview were scheduled later than the previous mentioned job…which means if I accept the M company…I must reject this RS company…Then, I only have 50/50 confidence in getting this RS company offer. And, maybe this RS can’t offer that high compared with M company ler…
Very disturbing when thinking wat decision to made…if accept M…will lost the opportunity of getting a job that I like (RS)…but if reject M, then probably I won’t get any job in the end if RS doesn’t want me…How ler???
So wish that I have no choice and only one choice in front of me that I can just take it without thinking so much….
Or itz I think too much liao…think of long-term…just do it 1st la….no need think too long 1st ma….rite??
If only got one person that can just give me order and I just follow it….no need to think this and that….consequences and effects….haiyo!!!!!!!
FAN FAN FAN laaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Monday, May 14, 2007
Interviews....
Today is 14 May, just bought a ticket to KL for tomorrow 330pm…estimated will reach KL around 8pm..
Then will meet LM…really feel bad because need to trouble him even though he is busy with his work…I still need to use up his time…but felt really glad cos know this fren, if not, how I go KL for interview ah??...A stranger in a strange place for me…not familiar and dun really know anyone there…Sometimes, I feel myself quite lucky too even though I’m not a very lucky gal that get to have all my wishes come true…and I need to put in a lot effort if I want something…not a very lucky gal…but at least, times that I felt stucked and helpless, the God always do show me some light…there is always a small path for me to go on whenever I thought I have come to a dead end road….the God always show me a side path….Thanks God!!
Arranged the interview date on 17 May…at first is 2 interview only…but then, saw an advertisement in newspaper…is the same building…so why not give it a try?...so now, have 3 interviews to go…
3 of the interview is not the kind of job I really like…but just give it a try la…I just want to earn some money within this 3 months if possible…before convocation….Convocation need to spend a lot of money again…Haih…Now really regret that I’m not a saving person…very broke at the moment…Why I spend so much neh??...What did I spend neh??
Mum not really like me to go work in KL..she keep on mentioning about how dangerous life was in the city…How difficult I will be if I work in the city….How I dun have nice and nutritious food to eat…and all sort of others…But, mum, I really need to go outside…Just let me live outside for a year or two…if it is suffering oso, let me suffer first, only I will be willing to admit and come back…If I haven’t tried, I won’t die heart de…Sorry,mum...i really have to try it…
These few days at home, meet up with a lot of old frens…frens that are not just hi-bye fren like those in the uni…Meet up with SL on Thurs…went out wth her…chat a few…then in Sat, yum cha with PE…chat a lot…and it feel so nice because it has really been a long time since I have a long heart-to-heart chat wth a fren….i’m glad that I still have u guys…really glad….then on Sun, SL & CS come find me at my house…CS ady married with 2 sons..the first son is even ady 5 yrs old…time really pass by so fast…SL is still the same old SL…her attitude and the way she talk no changes at all….it has been about 3 yrs no meet her liao…but, maybe in future, we will have more chance to met up la…
This time go KL will meet up wth ST…wonder whether we will oso have a long chat…since we have whole day to spend for each other….the only one fren that I not met up wth is SK…SK has been so busy recent years…with her works and her life….only met each other during CNY…
Frens…I’m grad too tis time…so will join u all in the working life la…hope we can go along the same pace and yet have time for each other la…Really hope can earn money fast…
Then will meet LM…really feel bad because need to trouble him even though he is busy with his work…I still need to use up his time…but felt really glad cos know this fren, if not, how I go KL for interview ah??...A stranger in a strange place for me…not familiar and dun really know anyone there…Sometimes, I feel myself quite lucky too even though I’m not a very lucky gal that get to have all my wishes come true…and I need to put in a lot effort if I want something…not a very lucky gal…but at least, times that I felt stucked and helpless, the God always do show me some light…there is always a small path for me to go on whenever I thought I have come to a dead end road….the God always show me a side path….Thanks God!!
Arranged the interview date on 17 May…at first is 2 interview only…but then, saw an advertisement in newspaper…is the same building…so why not give it a try?...so now, have 3 interviews to go…
3 of the interview is not the kind of job I really like…but just give it a try la…I just want to earn some money within this 3 months if possible…before convocation….Convocation need to spend a lot of money again…Haih…Now really regret that I’m not a saving person…very broke at the moment…Why I spend so much neh??...What did I spend neh??
Mum not really like me to go work in KL..she keep on mentioning about how dangerous life was in the city…How difficult I will be if I work in the city….How I dun have nice and nutritious food to eat…and all sort of others…But, mum, I really need to go outside…Just let me live outside for a year or two…if it is suffering oso, let me suffer first, only I will be willing to admit and come back…If I haven’t tried, I won’t die heart de…Sorry,mum...i really have to try it…
These few days at home, meet up with a lot of old frens…frens that are not just hi-bye fren like those in the uni…Meet up with SL on Thurs…went out wth her…chat a few…then in Sat, yum cha with PE…chat a lot…and it feel so nice because it has really been a long time since I have a long heart-to-heart chat wth a fren….i’m glad that I still have u guys…really glad….then on Sun, SL & CS come find me at my house…CS ady married with 2 sons..the first son is even ady 5 yrs old…time really pass by so fast…SL is still the same old SL…her attitude and the way she talk no changes at all….it has been about 3 yrs no meet her liao…but, maybe in future, we will have more chance to met up la…
This time go KL will meet up wth ST…wonder whether we will oso have a long chat…since we have whole day to spend for each other….the only one fren that I not met up wth is SK…SK has been so busy recent years…with her works and her life….only met each other during CNY…
Frens…I’m grad too tis time…so will join u all in the working life la…hope we can go along the same pace and yet have time for each other la…Really hope can earn money fast…
Friday, May 11, 2007
Happy Birthday.....
Today is someone's birthday....happy birthday la...
Wish to wish you by sms or even call you....but end up, forget about it la...
So just manage to wish you here cos i'm ego too....
Bad mood for these two days....
Why??
Stupid computer play games with me again....
Printer not functioning....turn out is the printer head problem...change a new head is around RM110 plus ink ler...all about RM150-170 estimate amount...
Or buy a new printer....RM150....but the guy recommend me buy the RM330 type...sure la...you want to do business...sure you will say how good is the RM330 de...and how not good is the RM150 de....
But, the main thing is i'm broke...so no matter how, you can't get business from me ....not RM150 or RM330...sorry la...
So, the decision is leave out the printer thing....no printer at the moment...
Then, turn out i can't connect to the internet...spend whole day calling the services centre of TMNET...useless...what ever method they teach me oso useless....
A bit faint la...and frustrated of course...cos i need to online urgently just to resend a resume to a company that already promised me an interview but then ask me to resend them my resume...headache la....why all things not in their smooth way at the moment???
Then, today...i get a call from the same company again...but this time is from the person in charge in a higher position de...haha....my interview appointment is fixed la...no need resend resume la....then check the modem settings in my computer...found a things called modem helper....so give it a try...turn out is my cable that used to connect the phone line is not functioning...haih....give me trouble whole day...!!!!????
PC ah!!PC!!!...pls la dun give me trouble anymore la...dun let me waste money anymore la....i really is very broke now.....even have to borrow more money from mum just to go KL for interview....so poor at the moment....no PTPTN....and realise that my savings account is very limited amount only....cham la...this time how to survive ah???
Hope the interview can success lor....but got two company wor....if both oso success, want choose which one ah??....sommore hope the salary is good lor...need to find money for rent house, transport etc....i'm broke and poor gal now....
Dun make me need to spend unnecessary money again la....pls,GOD....help me!!!
Wish to wish you by sms or even call you....but end up, forget about it la...
So just manage to wish you here cos i'm ego too....
Bad mood for these two days....
Why??
Stupid computer play games with me again....
Printer not functioning....turn out is the printer head problem...change a new head is around RM110 plus ink ler...all about RM150-170 estimate amount...
Or buy a new printer....RM150....but the guy recommend me buy the RM330 type...sure la...you want to do business...sure you will say how good is the RM330 de...and how not good is the RM150 de....
But, the main thing is i'm broke...so no matter how, you can't get business from me ....not RM150 or RM330...sorry la...
So, the decision is leave out the printer thing....no printer at the moment...
Then, turn out i can't connect to the internet...spend whole day calling the services centre of TMNET...useless...what ever method they teach me oso useless....
A bit faint la...and frustrated of course...cos i need to online urgently just to resend a resume to a company that already promised me an interview but then ask me to resend them my resume...headache la....why all things not in their smooth way at the moment???
Then, today...i get a call from the same company again...but this time is from the person in charge in a higher position de...haha....my interview appointment is fixed la...no need resend resume la....then check the modem settings in my computer...found a things called modem helper....so give it a try...turn out is my cable that used to connect the phone line is not functioning...haih....give me trouble whole day...!!!!????
PC ah!!PC!!!...pls la dun give me trouble anymore la...dun let me waste money anymore la....i really is very broke now.....even have to borrow more money from mum just to go KL for interview....so poor at the moment....no PTPTN....and realise that my savings account is very limited amount only....cham la...this time how to survive ah???
Hope the interview can success lor....but got two company wor....if both oso success, want choose which one ah??....sommore hope the salary is good lor...need to find money for rent house, transport etc....i'm broke and poor gal now....
Dun make me need to spend unnecessary money again la....pls,GOD....help me!!!
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Reach Home Today....
Just reach home today....
The feeling is .....dunno how to say??...
First, tired of carrying the luggage from my college walk to bus stop and till home...
Even though, i ady put just all the ringan ringan things...but still feel so heavy ah...my hand and shoulder oso aching la....just carry one luggage nia...
Shld be wondering how come my last sem liao...so few things??...actually need to thanks TF lor...help me brings a few big and heavy luggages...
Been helping me a lot for these 3 years...really dunno how to thank him....such a nice and real gentleman....I oso dunno how come i get so lucky to know a friend like him...always smiling face eventhough everytime i just bring him trouble and never get to help him back...thks very very much la....TF!!
Spend the whole day cleaning my bed, my table (full of dust), my room and unpacking my bags.....
Dinner today was splendid...very miss mum's cooking lor...but then, realise that mum is aging...getting old....
She complain about chest pain...hand ache...leg ache...old ppl's sickness....i felt so helpless becos i can't do anythg or give any advice to ease her pain.
Suddenly feel mum is getting older while i'm still unemployed, unable to do anythg for her, unable to make her more comfortable, unable to let her retired earlier....
Sometimes, really wished that i have an older brother or an older sister....then, at least i won't feel such a heavy responsibility...the responsibility of taking care of mum and giving a better life to my family...
Even though, they never request anythg from me..but, i still feel that i have the responsibility to do so...tired when thinking about how to fast fast make my family go a better life especially mum...Wish to give her a trip to oversea...she wish to go China...when will i get to have enuf $$ to bring her for a tour there??....Mother's Day coming this sunday.....i love u mum!!..But, i never said it out to you...and never buy any present for you or do anythg special for you....but, really hope i can did somthg for you real soon....
CL said that i'm over protective of myself...said that i'm unwilling to share thgs wth others, my stories,etc...is true...i admit that...the ppl in uni knew very little about me and my background cos i seldom talk about it...But, i dun feel that is wrong, if the person really sincere in being my fren, why shld he/she ask or know so much about my family and my background??...as long as they like me and my personality..thats enough,isn't it?
I dun like to talk about my family is bcos i dun wan ppl to take me as wat backgrd i have...nowadays, ppl so care abt status, about who u r, wat kind of connection u have....i just want a fair competition...i dun wan ppl judge me by tat way...i wan them to judge me just based on me...is tat wrong??...But, i dun care anymore...if u guys dun udstd me...then is up to you...i still have a bunch of high school schoolmates that really knows and udstd me..i miss u guys....PE,SL,SL,SK & ST....u guys are the best that never leave me alone even some long and many years...still there for me whenever i'm sad and in trouble...
The feeling is .....dunno how to say??...
First, tired of carrying the luggage from my college walk to bus stop and till home...
Even though, i ady put just all the ringan ringan things...but still feel so heavy ah...my hand and shoulder oso aching la....just carry one luggage nia...
Shld be wondering how come my last sem liao...so few things??...actually need to thanks TF lor...help me brings a few big and heavy luggages...
Been helping me a lot for these 3 years...really dunno how to thank him....such a nice and real gentleman....I oso dunno how come i get so lucky to know a friend like him...always smiling face eventhough everytime i just bring him trouble and never get to help him back...thks very very much la....TF!!
Spend the whole day cleaning my bed, my table (full of dust), my room and unpacking my bags.....
Dinner today was splendid...very miss mum's cooking lor...but then, realise that mum is aging...getting old....
She complain about chest pain...hand ache...leg ache...old ppl's sickness....i felt so helpless becos i can't do anythg or give any advice to ease her pain.
Suddenly feel mum is getting older while i'm still unemployed, unable to do anythg for her, unable to make her more comfortable, unable to let her retired earlier....
Sometimes, really wished that i have an older brother or an older sister....then, at least i won't feel such a heavy responsibility...the responsibility of taking care of mum and giving a better life to my family...
Even though, they never request anythg from me..but, i still feel that i have the responsibility to do so...tired when thinking about how to fast fast make my family go a better life especially mum...Wish to give her a trip to oversea...she wish to go China...when will i get to have enuf $$ to bring her for a tour there??....Mother's Day coming this sunday.....i love u mum!!..But, i never said it out to you...and never buy any present for you or do anythg special for you....but, really hope i can did somthg for you real soon....
CL said that i'm over protective of myself...said that i'm unwilling to share thgs wth others, my stories,etc...is true...i admit that...the ppl in uni knew very little about me and my background cos i seldom talk about it...But, i dun feel that is wrong, if the person really sincere in being my fren, why shld he/she ask or know so much about my family and my background??...as long as they like me and my personality..thats enough,isn't it?
I dun like to talk about my family is bcos i dun wan ppl to take me as wat backgrd i have...nowadays, ppl so care abt status, about who u r, wat kind of connection u have....i just want a fair competition...i dun wan ppl judge me by tat way...i wan them to judge me just based on me...is tat wrong??...But, i dun care anymore...if u guys dun udstd me...then is up to you...i still have a bunch of high school schoolmates that really knows and udstd me..i miss u guys....PE,SL,SL,SK & ST....u guys are the best that never leave me alone even some long and many years...still there for me whenever i'm sad and in trouble...
Monday, May 7, 2007
Unofficially Graduate....
Finally is 7 May 2007....
Just finish my Management Information System paper (TID)....
Before entering the exam hall,...feel like totally in NO CONFIDENT condition...
Don't even know what i'm reading and don't even know whether i can did extremely bad in this paper and blow all my efforts on other paper...
But now, feel so RELEASE....
Can do the paper but not to say did it well...
But at least won't waste up other subjects de efforts lar...
Now feel so free and relaxing...
No more exam and i'm a free gal now....
No practicum to take away my time and now is waiting to go for interview la...
Will be heading to KL next week...
Have two interviews to attend...
Hope can get a job that i like plus good salary lor...
Two more days in UUM...
Saw you today in the exam hall...
You look bad....can't do well???
But, i know that you will be able to cope...
Jia you la...one more sem here....did better for your paper before you really grad...
Perhaps i won't have any chance to have few last words with you....
Perhaps pretty soon....i'll be forgetting you...
Since i have delete your contact and plan to change a new number soon...
Since i be having a new environment and won't be seeing you anymore...
But, just want to say...i still have you in my mind once....before....whether you have me in your mind or not....i never did anything that i feel hurting others...
Wish you all the best...
Wish me all the best...
Wish us will be having a better life in the future...
Goodbye UUM....
And goodbye to you too....
Just finish my Management Information System paper (TID)....
Before entering the exam hall,...feel like totally in NO CONFIDENT condition...
Don't even know what i'm reading and don't even know whether i can did extremely bad in this paper and blow all my efforts on other paper...
But now, feel so RELEASE....
Can do the paper but not to say did it well...
But at least won't waste up other subjects de efforts lar...
Now feel so free and relaxing...
No more exam and i'm a free gal now....
No practicum to take away my time and now is waiting to go for interview la...
Will be heading to KL next week...
Have two interviews to attend...
Hope can get a job that i like plus good salary lor...
Two more days in UUM...
Saw you today in the exam hall...
You look bad....can't do well???
But, i know that you will be able to cope...
Jia you la...one more sem here....did better for your paper before you really grad...
Perhaps i won't have any chance to have few last words with you....
Perhaps pretty soon....i'll be forgetting you...
Since i have delete your contact and plan to change a new number soon...
Since i be having a new environment and won't be seeing you anymore...
But, just want to say...i still have you in my mind once....before....whether you have me in your mind or not....i never did anything that i feel hurting others...
Wish you all the best...
Wish me all the best...
Wish us will be having a better life in the future...
Goodbye UUM....
And goodbye to you too....
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Finish 5 papers...
Is 3 May 2007...
Just back from exam...
Today have two papers...
Multinational Corporation and Insurance Cargo.....
Both paper is my course paper...
Can answer both all the question.....
Better than previous 3 papers....
Hope can get A for both paper la...
After these two paper, felt so release.....because suddenly my burden are all gone....
This semester none of the papers that i feel can score well...
Really wished can get one or two As for this semester because i can't let my PMK drop ler...
No do practicum...my results is all depends on this time de final exam la...
Most of the paper get very high carry marks...
Among the highest in the class....but my final exam, i don't have the confidence of doing it well...
Except this two paper.....really hope dear God can help me la....
No more exams after these....
Actually two more paper to go lar....
What i mean is really graduate liao....
No more asignments,....no more classes....no more exams....no more carry marks...
Heading to the working life after this....
Wonder whats the adventure will be waiting for me out there??
Will be leaving UUM this 9 May.....
Really no more regrets??
No more words??
Don't you ever want to say something to me before i leave??
Things were so sour that it be memories for me forever.....in this UUM....there will always be something i felt regret of....
Just back from exam...
Today have two papers...
Multinational Corporation and Insurance Cargo.....
Both paper is my course paper...
Can answer both all the question.....
Better than previous 3 papers....
Hope can get A for both paper la...
After these two paper, felt so release.....because suddenly my burden are all gone....
This semester none of the papers that i feel can score well...
Really wished can get one or two As for this semester because i can't let my PMK drop ler...
No do practicum...my results is all depends on this time de final exam la...
Most of the paper get very high carry marks...
Among the highest in the class....but my final exam, i don't have the confidence of doing it well...
Except this two paper.....really hope dear God can help me la....
No more exams after these....
Actually two more paper to go lar....
What i mean is really graduate liao....
No more asignments,....no more classes....no more exams....no more carry marks...
Heading to the working life after this....
Wonder whats the adventure will be waiting for me out there??
Will be leaving UUM this 9 May.....
Really no more regrets??
No more words??
Don't you ever want to say something to me before i leave??
Things were so sour that it be memories for me forever.....in this UUM....there will always be something i felt regret of....
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