I'm Still Feel Sucks......

Bad tempered...
Panicked when communicate with dealers on the box...
Write wrong contracts....

Really bad mood nowadays la....
Getting more nagging and complaining and vry bad tempered and unpolite....

Yesterday receive one sms that hurt my feelings vry much...

"YS,next time if u r not reli sure, pls dun promise for any outgoing tat ppl arrange like last time p.mlm case, n oso, pls respect others responsibility to u. as i promise to fetch u, i reserve a seat for u n reject s.leng.everytime reject someone at last minute wil make someone's plan gone de. u made me felt like nobody to fren wit. n beg someone to b my fren.anyway, s.leng follow me back. hope understand my dissatisfaction.as i felt, u just kick promise if u found another better one.but as i promise u, i need take responsible if i reject u.but u just suka suka fly aeroplane"

I never fly him aeroplane because he never really confirm with me that he is going to fetch me back hometown for CNY....so i ask someone else favour.....he never tell me the date that he is going back and never tell me tat he will fetch me...Suddenly, i'm framed by ppl like tat...And the sad part is, i'm being viewed as such kind of a person??...Really so dun understand me!!!!!!!!

Frustating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Working life is sucks as well....Everyday, i feel like dragging myself up from the bed to go to work....feel myself doing teribbly bad....

Evrydy feel lik wan to have a long holiday and need to find someone to express all the moody feel/stress from daily job....but i dun wan to do that cos will make ppl hate me more n more....everyone have their own problem, i shouldnt go n complain to them abt my problem anymore....is torturing ppl's ear....

But too bad, the only solution is here...writing this blog to express myself...but too busy and no time to online...i miss money market...that's the truth....

But, i hate money market as well cos i feel myself is doing good there and close a few deals ady....but they dun wan confirm me...

Had the feeling of applying for new job ady...but dun have the confident to submit the application because i dun really know whether that is a correct decision ma?? Am i such a stupid?? Or a coward??

Hope that this new RAT year will really brings better luck to me....But, luckily i have you to be around me and support me...Sorry for all the troubles i bring to you...and thanks for everything you did...

Tired and Lost......A bit Frustrating!!!

3 days in FOREX desks...
Very tiring....
Quote until i had sorethroat, compared to Money desk...the environment is totally different and i'm trying hard to adjust myself to adapt to it...

Back home at late nite, and sleep late but wakeup at 530am...
Tired...

I feel lost as well, no proper mentor to guide me...but ady prepared for these, because the working environment here, you need to be smart yourself to takecare and dun let others bully you...
Street smart?? I'm not...
I may be easy to bullied but at least i still know how to protect myself, won't drop too badly..
I know your style, i know you are power addicted....
Put me in this desk only want me to stay under you...
You will always makesure i dun get the equal chance that you get from him...
But, i believe that others can see...

I'm not as smart as you but at least, i'm not that bad...

Now, i understand why J says she is lost and fed up...
Is not good feel to be compared against a person that always have the power to influence the decision maker...

But now, i should wait and wait and wait.....just to be confirmed....

Yangggggggggg......yangggg.......yanggg!!!!!!!!!

FOREX here i come!!!!!!!!!

Yes....

Starting next Monday, i will be moving to FOREX desk...
More challenging desk and i hope the management there is different from Money desk...
And the leader there is better at training new staff and ofcourse he is more protective and fight for his subordinates...
But, he is also more strict...

Need to forgone my beauty sleep liao...
Need to slept earlier and maybe back late...
Cos need to entertain and meet new dealers...
Need to come to work around 730am or earlier...until when i'm familiar and can do thgs by myself
Need to stop MSN and surfing the internet liao cos my new head not gonna give me that permission...

Dunno whether i can do well there, be able to learn and do things fast??
But i'm excited of joining this new desk...
I believe that i'll be able to get confirmed earlier here..

Wish me luck and wish me good..
I can do better and earn better...

Recently feel something extra in the life...
I dunno if it is right choice or not, but, i will give it a try...

Gotta learn driving, hope during tis CNY holiday, i can drive and fetch mum for shopping...
Hehe, you promise to teach me drive, dun fly me airplane oh!!
Soon, i gonna have a car of my own....

Things looks better and the sky looks clearer...
Cheers =>