Fear of Losing

I got the feeling that we couldn't last long. He said " In life, you have to learn to feel contented and appreciate what we have." Maybe he try to send the message that i'm too demanding??

But, i'm not. I'm not that demanding. Is not that i want to request anything from him. Just that, i like to feel pampered. I guess all the girls is the same like me, like to be pampered.But, each time when i talked to him and from the response he gave, i feel pain in my heart. I feel disappointed. As if you don't care anymore. But, you keep telling me, assuring me that you do care. But, your action doesn't make my feel so. I feel imbalance. I put too much priority in you. While, you only put me probably the 3rd place. I know that you is a person with ambition. But, if once a while, you make me feel important, how nice it would be?....But, i dunno know to convey that message to you. Cos each time, when i try to tell you about what i felt, your response is as if i tried to find an argument with, as if i tried to demand you to do somthing...But, do you know that actually, i just want to say it out, just want to tell you what i feel, just want you to listen. Thats all...Am i too demanding??

I really don't want to lose you. But i feel like i'm losing you. I feel myself lost the glow that attract you. I feel myself not able to catch your attention anymore. Just the matter of time. Sooner or later...Or is there miracle?? Maybe just this short period??
Can we be like lastime, when you make me feel i'm important and pampered??
You stop doing things that you did for me lastime...
You stop everything....
Was it because you knew i'm yours for sure??
Or was it because you don't feel worth it anymore to do somthg for me??

Suddenly, i feel so scared...
One moment, i feel like you are the one...
The next moment, i feel like i'm losing it...
Please stop making me insecure...