Feeling so Down down down.....

Just finis the first week of class..but my mood still not recover yet..feeling so down lately..wat's happening to me?..i felt lazy,very very lazy, dun have the mood to attend class, dun have the mood to chat with frens, dun have the mood to do anythg..

Probably, bcos of my eye,...sick eye that still not recover yet..is nearly one year ady..still hasn't recover..went to see so many doctor, tried so many kind of treatment, watever superstitious thgs oso have tried before,..still is a failure..i nearly gave up ady..dun want to try anymore..It really makes me lost confidence in myself, i'm feeling ugly..very very ugly..hate to meet people..and really feel like just hide in my room or in my house until i have truly recover..tired of answering questions,tons and tons of questions regarding that eye..

Even worse, tis time when back to UUM, i felt leftout, all my frens seems to ignore me, dinner time no call me anymore, go anywhere no including me anymore, lunchbreak can't find companion anymore..wat's happening??...actually, not all ignored me..is that lesser fren tis sem, most went back home during weekend, and i have lesser ppl to ask for companion..suddenly, felt so lonely..

Tis sound so sad,rite?...all unhappy things..

But, nextweek, i'm planning to go Genting with ex-roomate and her frens..at least have some place to spend my five-days holiday..but, while they were excited talking about the plan of going Genting,..i have no feeling,..not excited, not happy, and no expectation..wat's happening to me?

I must get busy..i must have more plans to fit in my time..i must have back my life..i must have back my confidence..really hope that after tis CNY, everythg will be better...why CNY?not newyear2007?..because is already a half month away from 1st of Jan,..yet my life didn't seem be any better..

Will it get better?...sure it will..it MUST!!!!.....i dun wan to write a sad sad blog...