2008 gonna end soon...
Merry Christmas!!
Happy New Year!!
I also wanna give myself some gifts..
My list for myself...
1. Bedroom set ( i gonna hv my own bedroom set and decorate my room, yeah :D)
2. A set of nice necklace and earring for dinner....( saw one damn nice from Monet)
3. A new handbag
4. An earring stand (so tat i can hang all earring nicely ^O^)
5. Jewellery box ( so my thgs wont be one here and one there anymore)
6. A car (still considering )
7. A ring for myself
8. A nice dinner dress
9. Few pair clothing
10.Small sling bag
That's all for the moment...got to give myself some goal!!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
:(
You said i'm 2nd place, after your parents, ok, that is reasonable. But, no, i never felt that you treat me like i'm 2nd place..I'm alwiz last last last............plc.
I'm in a bad mood. But, you can't even tam me or let me feel pampered for a while, just a short while. You just ignored my msg , acted as if you never read it...Ok, no need to say anythg!!!...:@
Just goodnite enuf....Goodnite LORRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! :@
Bad guy!!!!
I'm in a bad mood. But, you can't even tam me or let me feel pampered for a while, just a short while. You just ignored my msg , acted as if you never read it...Ok, no need to say anythg!!!...:@
Just goodnite enuf....Goodnite LORRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! :@
Bad guy!!!!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
MBB Sucks!!!!
To those MBB user, my advice is MBB sucks, choose another service provider.This advice is based on my personal experience. Damn frustrated with their service and their rules. Ridiculous!!!
As i have been snatched, so i have cancelled all my credit card and ATM card, and ask for replacement. Two bank for comparison. I gave my credit to CIMB, fast, easy and convenient service. Went to the bank, ask for ATM card replacement, on the spot itself, they can replace me with a new ATM card, key in the details in their system, after i changed my pin number, i can use the ATM card immediately.
While, lousy MBB, they said, only can give me a replacement ATM card, after i provide my new IC, and if i want to make withdrawal without ATM card, i need to go back to my original branch to make withdrawal. What a JOKE!!??? Imagine, i'm a snatch thief victim, i loss my money, and the bank where i kept my savings, even worst, add on my burden, by blocking my financial access??Where and how do i get to withdraw my money if i'm currently in another state, or somewhere far from the original branch where i open my acct?? And as everyone knew, IC replacement won't get so fast, so am i gonna starve while waiting for my IC?? And i believe that, the only reason, the bank stated such requirement is to ease their own procedure, because they don't have to post that transaction within their branches. But, do they realise that such requirement actually provide a very inconveniency to their consumer?? Being a consumer bank, such a lousy service will only encourage the user to switch to another bank which provide better and more convenient service to their needs. Given the savings rate is the same, which bank will you choose, if you were me? A bank that block my own financial access?? Or a bank that help me get back to my life soonest as possible?? The choice is very clear, i believe.
And their credit card service, i have called and asked for replacement card about two weeks ago when i cancelled the card because it was snatched. The officer asked me to wait for their letter, to pick up the card at the branch. However, two weeks have passed, the letter is nowhere to be seen...Dissappointment again...sigh...
Then when i called their customer service, the call is so late to be answered, yet i need to be transferred here and there, between the ATM and credit card, is not convenient at all....Why the MBB can provide such a slow service???Why the MBB can't be more competitive and find out what kind of service other banks providing?? Sooner or later, MBB being a recognizable bank in Msia, gonna lost all their clients if they don't change the service system. On the other hand, some bank can give 24 hours credit card replacement, and even though CIMB can't give that kind of efficiency, they promised me one week, and one week later, whn i return to the bank, they really did gave me a replacement card, at least they kept their promise. At least, i'm happy that i did save my money in a bank that i can trust. Imagine if all my savings were only in MBB, now maybe i don't even have money to eat my lunch.
I'm fed up with MBB, frustrated, also have scolded their customer service. Next thing i will do is to close my account in MBB....And no more MBB....sucks!!! :S
As i have been snatched, so i have cancelled all my credit card and ATM card, and ask for replacement. Two bank for comparison. I gave my credit to CIMB, fast, easy and convenient service. Went to the bank, ask for ATM card replacement, on the spot itself, they can replace me with a new ATM card, key in the details in their system, after i changed my pin number, i can use the ATM card immediately.
While, lousy MBB, they said, only can give me a replacement ATM card, after i provide my new IC, and if i want to make withdrawal without ATM card, i need to go back to my original branch to make withdrawal. What a JOKE!!??? Imagine, i'm a snatch thief victim, i loss my money, and the bank where i kept my savings, even worst, add on my burden, by blocking my financial access??Where and how do i get to withdraw my money if i'm currently in another state, or somewhere far from the original branch where i open my acct?? And as everyone knew, IC replacement won't get so fast, so am i gonna starve while waiting for my IC?? And i believe that, the only reason, the bank stated such requirement is to ease their own procedure, because they don't have to post that transaction within their branches. But, do they realise that such requirement actually provide a very inconveniency to their consumer?? Being a consumer bank, such a lousy service will only encourage the user to switch to another bank which provide better and more convenient service to their needs. Given the savings rate is the same, which bank will you choose, if you were me? A bank that block my own financial access?? Or a bank that help me get back to my life soonest as possible?? The choice is very clear, i believe.
And their credit card service, i have called and asked for replacement card about two weeks ago when i cancelled the card because it was snatched. The officer asked me to wait for their letter, to pick up the card at the branch. However, two weeks have passed, the letter is nowhere to be seen...Dissappointment again...sigh...
Then when i called their customer service, the call is so late to be answered, yet i need to be transferred here and there, between the ATM and credit card, is not convenient at all....Why the MBB can provide such a slow service???Why the MBB can't be more competitive and find out what kind of service other banks providing?? Sooner or later, MBB being a recognizable bank in Msia, gonna lost all their clients if they don't change the service system. On the other hand, some bank can give 24 hours credit card replacement, and even though CIMB can't give that kind of efficiency, they promised me one week, and one week later, whn i return to the bank, they really did gave me a replacement card, at least they kept their promise. At least, i'm happy that i did save my money in a bank that i can trust. Imagine if all my savings were only in MBB, now maybe i don't even have money to eat my lunch.
I'm fed up with MBB, frustrated, also have scolded their customer service. Next thing i will do is to close my account in MBB....And no more MBB....sucks!!! :S
Thursday, October 16, 2008
17 Oct 2008
Lastnite, couldn't sleep at all, because period pain, very very pain. I can't move, can't lie down, can't sit, can't do anythg. This morning, send C a sms taking MC today. Now still pain.Haven't go out to see doctor yet. Haven't eat anythg yet. Can't walk. Just feel teribble. Oh God, pls la help me la, don't torture me like this again la. Very pain ler...:S
Today, i think my desk not enough people, but, cham lor, i didn't go. I very irresponsible? Actually, i shld go, but i really can't make it la..
Dare not go out to see doctor and buy lunch. Scared got attacked again..Or maybe i bring big umbrella with me? Then, can hit that guy, if any of them?? But, i scared la..If kena again, die la...no key come into house, cos no one at home...:S
Aiyo, police pls do work la. I wonder how many victims have the phobia after attack?? How long they all take to recover?? If a government is unable to give the most basic safety/security to its citizen, what else hope do the citizen will have in the government?? My honest word, Malaysia is a fail country!!!Only use stupid ISA to arrest people who state their opinion, and spend time on the political tactic of how to get a higher post or how to spend more taxpayer money, but never really think/study tactics that can give a better life to its citizen.Public amenities sucks, security sucks, education sucks, as not recognised worldwidely, transportation sucks, evrythg seems to be sucks..This kind of government, who else will put their hope in its leader??
Dunno why, recently very easy get frustated, waiting for long hours for train, wait long hours for taxi, all make me feel so angry, now, even to walk peacefully on a street seems to be a difficult task...such a easy, basic task, yet so hard to do, all because of those stupid sucks government, create so many criminals, yet no police to take action. I feel the policemen all just make a joke, ask for do report, then send here, send thr, in the end, close file, no results...Go to hell la!!!Damn it!!!Wasting resources, wasting papers, wasting people's time and money. If there is a voting poll ask me to rank for their service...sorry, maybe you will only get 1/10.....Shit!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today, i think my desk not enough people, but, cham lor, i didn't go. I very irresponsible? Actually, i shld go, but i really can't make it la..
Dare not go out to see doctor and buy lunch. Scared got attacked again..Or maybe i bring big umbrella with me? Then, can hit that guy, if any of them?? But, i scared la..If kena again, die la...no key come into house, cos no one at home...:S
Aiyo, police pls do work la. I wonder how many victims have the phobia after attack?? How long they all take to recover?? If a government is unable to give the most basic safety/security to its citizen, what else hope do the citizen will have in the government?? My honest word, Malaysia is a fail country!!!Only use stupid ISA to arrest people who state their opinion, and spend time on the political tactic of how to get a higher post or how to spend more taxpayer money, but never really think/study tactics that can give a better life to its citizen.Public amenities sucks, security sucks, education sucks, as not recognised worldwidely, transportation sucks, evrythg seems to be sucks..This kind of government, who else will put their hope in its leader??
Dunno why, recently very easy get frustated, waiting for long hours for train, wait long hours for taxi, all make me feel so angry, now, even to walk peacefully on a street seems to be a difficult task...such a easy, basic task, yet so hard to do, all because of those stupid sucks government, create so many criminals, yet no police to take action. I feel the policemen all just make a joke, ask for do report, then send here, send thr, in the end, close file, no results...Go to hell la!!!Damn it!!!Wasting resources, wasting papers, wasting people's time and money. If there is a voting poll ask me to rank for their service...sorry, maybe you will only get 1/10.....Shit!!!!!!!!!!!!
16 Oct 2008
Today overall is not a good day. Start off with a bad Putra LRT service, the train stop too long at Bangsar station, make me late for work today.
Later, in the afternoon, just before lunch, i get stuck in a deal.I wrote the wrong counterparty name. Yesterday's MGS 9/11 deal done at 20 level, today the level have gone up to 35-40. That is a spread of 15-20 level, so high ler. If really get stuck, how argh?? So careless of me...:S
Then, again need to go Pudu, to change bus ticket, lunch with HC and YF. For 2 days, i didn't eat my lunch, no appetite at all. Feel of vomitting only all the time.Monday, Tuesday, Wed no eat rice at all. Today, had my 1st meal of rice, but didn't finish it.HC and YF don't want to accompany me to Pudu. So, i go alone, after buy ticket for J, i don't know how to find my way to take bus back to office, so, end up taking taxi, but also need to ask so many taxis, before can really get one, because all the taxis try to cheat me, asking for RM20, 15, 30 for such a near direction, by meter only RM4-5 actually.
Jack said my eye bag vry teribble, make me look so tense. Teribble, so ugly.Haven't been updating the blog, because all this while, i have WC around, anythg i not happy or happy, i can just share with him, and tell him evrythg. So, there is no need for blog anymore. But, he is now so far away in China, telephone is expensive, plus he is too busy for me, busy wth meeting and training. So, i have no one to talk to. Can only write all this down in the blog. Release myself.Really wish you were here, whn i'm in such a teribble situation. KL give me a vry mean feel, no humanity, no friendship, no love and no care...Miss home, miss UUM, miss my family dearly..^0^
Lastnite, i thght WC went out for drink, so maybe he won't have time for me, but actually he told me that he didn't went out, cos he want online with me, so sweet. But, alas, my house modem has broke down, so i cant online. Been waiting for his call whole nite, but he didn't call. Back in mind, i was thinking he must have forgotten about me again. He always forget abt me whn he is back hometwn, with his boss, or doing other thgs. That's why, all this while, i always have the impression that he always forget abt me...But, i'm wrong again..Sorry, dear, think bad abt u..
Rain again. Everyday rain so heavily when i don't have an umbrella with me. Haiz..hate those stupid mother fucker thief so much, turning my life up and down, i hate it when my life is unproper, i don't have umbrella, didn't have my room key, didn't have this, didn't have that...so not me.so not convenient. My life suddenly is not under my control...WC said wait him back, wait him back...i'm waiting him back, but it seems so long to wait. I want my life back!!!!Miss you so much la..You faster come back la..
Tommorrow will be better..Must be tough, you can do it!!!Slowly get your life back, ok!!!...
Later, in the afternoon, just before lunch, i get stuck in a deal.I wrote the wrong counterparty name. Yesterday's MGS 9/11 deal done at 20 level, today the level have gone up to 35-40. That is a spread of 15-20 level, so high ler. If really get stuck, how argh?? So careless of me...:S
Then, again need to go Pudu, to change bus ticket, lunch with HC and YF. For 2 days, i didn't eat my lunch, no appetite at all. Feel of vomitting only all the time.Monday, Tuesday, Wed no eat rice at all. Today, had my 1st meal of rice, but didn't finish it.HC and YF don't want to accompany me to Pudu. So, i go alone, after buy ticket for J, i don't know how to find my way to take bus back to office, so, end up taking taxi, but also need to ask so many taxis, before can really get one, because all the taxis try to cheat me, asking for RM20, 15, 30 for such a near direction, by meter only RM4-5 actually.
Jack said my eye bag vry teribble, make me look so tense. Teribble, so ugly.Haven't been updating the blog, because all this while, i have WC around, anythg i not happy or happy, i can just share with him, and tell him evrythg. So, there is no need for blog anymore. But, he is now so far away in China, telephone is expensive, plus he is too busy for me, busy wth meeting and training. So, i have no one to talk to. Can only write all this down in the blog. Release myself.Really wish you were here, whn i'm in such a teribble situation. KL give me a vry mean feel, no humanity, no friendship, no love and no care...Miss home, miss UUM, miss my family dearly..^0^
Lastnite, i thght WC went out for drink, so maybe he won't have time for me, but actually he told me that he didn't went out, cos he want online with me, so sweet. But, alas, my house modem has broke down, so i cant online. Been waiting for his call whole nite, but he didn't call. Back in mind, i was thinking he must have forgotten about me again. He always forget abt me whn he is back hometwn, with his boss, or doing other thgs. That's why, all this while, i always have the impression that he always forget abt me...But, i'm wrong again..Sorry, dear, think bad abt u..
Rain again. Everyday rain so heavily when i don't have an umbrella with me. Haiz..hate those stupid mother fucker thief so much, turning my life up and down, i hate it when my life is unproper, i don't have umbrella, didn't have my room key, didn't have this, didn't have that...so not me.so not convenient. My life suddenly is not under my control...WC said wait him back, wait him back...i'm waiting him back, but it seems so long to wait. I want my life back!!!!Miss you so much la..You faster come back la..
Tommorrow will be better..Must be tough, you can do it!!!Slowly get your life back, ok!!!...
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Bad Luck....bad luck...
After walk so far to reach Pudu, i bought a ticket back to hometown for Friday, only realised that i bought the wrong ticket. I'm suppose to buy next Friday (Deepavali week) bus ticket, but, as i forget to mention date, i have bought this week's Friday...haiz..
Didn't able to pay attention recently on all my work, at office, at people's conversation, now, bought the wrong ticket. Should i go back and change, have to walk so far again, and i didn't bring out my ATM card, i only bring a bit of money, now i only left RM12. Itz enough money for me to change the ticket (got charged) and train fare, enough money to go back??...Or i borrow some money from colleague 1st or tommorrow only go to change the ticket?...Or apply Monday's leave?...then, what about next week? stay here or go back again??
Aarggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everything seems so wrong...
So hate KL...
Hate this place..
Everythg so dirty, so cruel, so danger....
Not a place to live...
Didn't able to pay attention recently on all my work, at office, at people's conversation, now, bought the wrong ticket. Should i go back and change, have to walk so far again, and i didn't bring out my ATM card, i only bring a bit of money, now i only left RM12. Itz enough money for me to change the ticket (got charged) and train fare, enough money to go back??...Or i borrow some money from colleague 1st or tommorrow only go to change the ticket?...Or apply Monday's leave?...then, what about next week? stay here or go back again??
Aarggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everything seems so wrong...
So hate KL...
Hate this place..
Everythg so dirty, so cruel, so danger....
Not a place to live...
What Gender is Ur Brain?
Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male |
 Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! |
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Been Snatched..=<
This morning damn shui...got snatched =<
Lost evrythg, my money, my hp, my IC, my license,pendrive....evrythg...
Suddenly felt so blur, dunno what to do, so lost
Make police report, went to IC dept, i can't recognise the thief face, but luckily i'm not injured, just some small scratch and marks on my arm.
WC not around, went to China, too bad...but, luckily can online. Housemates bring me to make police report, lend me hp to make calls to cancel evrythg, and then Lai Seng come my house and bring me do all the stuffs, lend me money, etc. Shia Leng lend me her hp temporarily. Luckily got friends around to help me, if not, i dunno wat to do?
Tomorrow need to go to work la. How ler??Same route...scary
Lost evrythg, my money, my hp, my IC, my license,pendrive....evrythg...
Suddenly felt so blur, dunno what to do, so lost
Make police report, went to IC dept, i can't recognise the thief face, but luckily i'm not injured, just some small scratch and marks on my arm.
WC not around, went to China, too bad...but, luckily can online. Housemates bring me to make police report, lend me hp to make calls to cancel evrythg, and then Lai Seng come my house and bring me do all the stuffs, lend me money, etc. Shia Leng lend me her hp temporarily. Luckily got friends around to help me, if not, i dunno wat to do?
Tomorrow need to go to work la. How ler??Same route...scary
Friday, September 26, 2008
I'm just a WALL after all....
Felt so hurt whn you said "a Wall also can listen, i don't need a Wall"
So, after all the things i have done, i'm only just a Wall in your mind..I can't share your problems, i cant share your comments/ thoughts in your career...That's what you told me. Sorry about that, cos i did try to listen, but i'm unable to give response because, i am not familiar and don't really know what to say..
Because i'm just a listener, not an opinion giver, so i'm just a wall...Perhaps, you don't need me after all..
So, after all the things i have done, i'm only just a Wall in your mind..I can't share your problems, i cant share your comments/ thoughts in your career...That's what you told me. Sorry about that, cos i did try to listen, but i'm unable to give response because, i am not familiar and don't really know what to say..
Because i'm just a listener, not an opinion giver, so i'm just a wall...Perhaps, you don't need me after all..
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Why U Can't Understand Me??
" That's all"..."I lost my patient"...That's what you told me. That's what you always told me. All this while, i feel myself keep be patient so that you won't angry, you won't unhappy. Did everything thinking on your behalf. But, yet you still misunderstand me. In your mind, i'm always the bad girl. The one that make you travel, make you tired, make you not enough sleep and the list goes on....
Am i that bad?? Try to cook for you, you didn't appreciate, spend my weekends with you, but dunno whether you ever appreciate that.
You always treathen me that you lost ur patient, don't let you lost your patient. Then, you will always say sorry to me, and sorry again and again. I listen to your sorry so many times but do you ever meant every " Sorry" that you had said? Never, you say it out so easily and so simply out of your mouth and you never meant it. I'm disappointed and sad.
I dun no why i keep on crying for you and yet, each time, will told myself to be patient with you. Told myself that you are worthwhile for me. Told myself that i shouldn't give up. Told myself we can make it.
Each time i say somthing, you will never understand. You never think on my point of view. When i stated and explained myself, did you ever try to step in my shoes and think on my behalf? Yet, you blame me for not understanding. Why your ego is so high? Itz you prefer me to be the one obeying you all the while?
You always said is not matter of who right and who wrong..But, all this while, you keep pressing that you are the right one and i'm wrong..Even though u din say it in words, but evry sentence and evry action of you make me think that way.
Why you won't make me happy or "tam" me back??
Am i that bad?? Try to cook for you, you didn't appreciate, spend my weekends with you, but dunno whether you ever appreciate that.
You always treathen me that you lost ur patient, don't let you lost your patient. Then, you will always say sorry to me, and sorry again and again. I listen to your sorry so many times but do you ever meant every " Sorry" that you had said? Never, you say it out so easily and so simply out of your mouth and you never meant it. I'm disappointed and sad.
I dun no why i keep on crying for you and yet, each time, will told myself to be patient with you. Told myself that you are worthwhile for me. Told myself that i shouldn't give up. Told myself we can make it.
Each time i say somthing, you will never understand. You never think on my point of view. When i stated and explained myself, did you ever try to step in my shoes and think on my behalf? Yet, you blame me for not understanding. Why your ego is so high? Itz you prefer me to be the one obeying you all the while?
You always said is not matter of who right and who wrong..But, all this while, you keep pressing that you are the right one and i'm wrong..Even though u din say it in words, but evry sentence and evry action of you make me think that way.
Why you won't make me happy or "tam" me back??
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
So Lost...
Two months is over in the bond desk.
First month is good. Got response from 2 banks that been assigned to handle. They chat with me and go out with me. Give me prices and close deals with me. Then, been away for courses and treasure hunt.
Back to office, things changed. They stopped giving response. Was it somthing i did wrong? "Nope. Is the market." That's the answer i received. " No position mah"."If have, wil find u later."...Bored bored. What a job? What a life?.Asking people out to have free lunch with me also hard. Starting conversation with people also seems to not long-lasting.Chat midway, the topic wil just die off. People stop replying.
Sometimes, i'm been thinking. Should i just stop here and switch, while i'm still not too long here? Beside, it wasn't my cup of tea at the beginning. But, now i'm stuck with exam. No matter how, got to go for the exam and must PASS. The most important thing is PASS. 23rd and 24th August. 4 modules in 2 days in a row. 75% is the passing marks. But, i haven't really started reading. No pressure. No mood. No urge.
Oh God, please show me a way. I have lost motivation and lost direction. Each time i talk to WC about it, actually inside my heart is i dunno wat gonna be my future path? What is my career path? I dun wan to waste time. Yet, i dunno whether am i wasting my time?But, even PE also have been switching a few jobs only discover the things that she like and her career path. Even the new colleague J also have been changing the industry he is in after 2-3yrs. While i'm only jus 1 yr in here, perhaps i still need more time??
Day by day, i started to feel myself getting useless, less self-value, wasting company's resources. Makan gaji buta. I feel myself didn't contribute to the desk at all. No bring in business. No go out entertaining clients. Is not that i don't want, but, the clients doesn't seems to accept my invitation. Everytime being rejected.
Am i that useless??
WC says," Don't always complain. Stop complaining and start to progress myself. Improve all the weaknesses. We have to be progressive. Don't stay a Kampung Champion forever. Must improve our life. Must more positive"
I know. I know. You are right. But, i'm lost. I don't know how. I used to be a top scorer. I used to be doing good and get recognition from my lecturers, from my teachers and even ex-bosses. But now, i feel myself is in the last place. The worst and most useless employer in this company. The most unproductive. The most not performing person. No one look up on me. Yet, they never blame. But, i blame. I don't want myself to be like this.
How? Please tell me how to improve?Show me some direction. I got to change. I don't want to stay in this position.
1st of all, i must pass my PKMC. Whether use it or not in future, that's 2nd.
Jia you!!!!!You can do it, gal!!! Go go GO!!!!YS
First month is good. Got response from 2 banks that been assigned to handle. They chat with me and go out with me. Give me prices and close deals with me. Then, been away for courses and treasure hunt.
Back to office, things changed. They stopped giving response. Was it somthing i did wrong? "Nope. Is the market." That's the answer i received. " No position mah"."If have, wil find u later."...Bored bored. What a job? What a life?.Asking people out to have free lunch with me also hard. Starting conversation with people also seems to not long-lasting.Chat midway, the topic wil just die off. People stop replying.
Sometimes, i'm been thinking. Should i just stop here and switch, while i'm still not too long here? Beside, it wasn't my cup of tea at the beginning. But, now i'm stuck with exam. No matter how, got to go for the exam and must PASS. The most important thing is PASS. 23rd and 24th August. 4 modules in 2 days in a row. 75% is the passing marks. But, i haven't really started reading. No pressure. No mood. No urge.
Oh God, please show me a way. I have lost motivation and lost direction. Each time i talk to WC about it, actually inside my heart is i dunno wat gonna be my future path? What is my career path? I dun wan to waste time. Yet, i dunno whether am i wasting my time?But, even PE also have been switching a few jobs only discover the things that she like and her career path. Even the new colleague J also have been changing the industry he is in after 2-3yrs. While i'm only jus 1 yr in here, perhaps i still need more time??
Day by day, i started to feel myself getting useless, less self-value, wasting company's resources. Makan gaji buta. I feel myself didn't contribute to the desk at all. No bring in business. No go out entertaining clients. Is not that i don't want, but, the clients doesn't seems to accept my invitation. Everytime being rejected.
Am i that useless??
WC says," Don't always complain. Stop complaining and start to progress myself. Improve all the weaknesses. We have to be progressive. Don't stay a Kampung Champion forever. Must improve our life. Must more positive"
I know. I know. You are right. But, i'm lost. I don't know how. I used to be a top scorer. I used to be doing good and get recognition from my lecturers, from my teachers and even ex-bosses. But now, i feel myself is in the last place. The worst and most useless employer in this company. The most unproductive. The most not performing person. No one look up on me. Yet, they never blame. But, i blame. I don't want myself to be like this.
How? Please tell me how to improve?Show me some direction. I got to change. I don't want to stay in this position.
1st of all, i must pass my PKMC. Whether use it or not in future, that's 2nd.
Jia you!!!!!You can do it, gal!!! Go go GO!!!!YS
Friday, July 25, 2008
What My Name Means??....
Found this interesting webpage. Have a try on it doing analysis for my own name. Here is the result:
Was it accurate??No Idea. What do you think, my friends??
What Xx Xxxx Xxxx Means |
 You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. |
Was it accurate??No Idea. What do you think, my friends??
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Confidence!!!!!!!!!!!
Went to CoreVentus interview.
But failed.
But i'm happy.
Why?
Because i have think clearly. Something that Mr.Raj said trigger my mind.My blur and confused mind that have bothered me for these few weeks. Suddenly, get a hint to think clearly.
He says:That i don't understand myself.That i don't know myself and where is my limit. That i don't know whether how far i can push myself to overcome challenges. That i don't have self-confidence. Therefore, no matter where i go for interview, i'm unable to prove myself capable, unable to confirm and tell others that i'm the right one. Cos, i don't even have confidence in myself. I need to face more challenges and know myself well in order to prove to others of who am i.
I totally agree with him. Gana said the same thing. Everyone said the same thing. That i'm lack of confidence. Is not that i'm not good, is just that i'm not good to myself. I have to be good to myself so that i'm able to let others believe in me and give me opportunity and help me succeed.
Okay, so here is the changes. The changes of myself. I will start to learn more about bonds. Read more. Do well in the PFM exam. And prove to Chai, Chad and to my 2 bossess that i can do damn well in bond desk. I gonna be a new me. A more confident me.
You can do it, YS!!!!!!!!
Go!Go!Go!!!!
But failed.
But i'm happy.
Why?
Because i have think clearly. Something that Mr.Raj said trigger my mind.My blur and confused mind that have bothered me for these few weeks. Suddenly, get a hint to think clearly.
He says:That i don't understand myself.That i don't know myself and where is my limit. That i don't know whether how far i can push myself to overcome challenges. That i don't have self-confidence. Therefore, no matter where i go for interview, i'm unable to prove myself capable, unable to confirm and tell others that i'm the right one. Cos, i don't even have confidence in myself. I need to face more challenges and know myself well in order to prove to others of who am i.
I totally agree with him. Gana said the same thing. Everyone said the same thing. That i'm lack of confidence. Is not that i'm not good, is just that i'm not good to myself. I have to be good to myself so that i'm able to let others believe in me and give me opportunity and help me succeed.
Okay, so here is the changes. The changes of myself. I will start to learn more about bonds. Read more. Do well in the PFM exam. And prove to Chai, Chad and to my 2 bossess that i can do damn well in bond desk. I gonna be a new me. A more confident me.
You can do it, YS!!!!!!!!
Go!Go!Go!!!!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Horoscope : Embrace Changes, Don't Fight It
Horoscopes says : Embrace changes, don't fight it.
But, i don't know what kind of changes it means. I have resigned twice. Take back the letter twice bcos of some colleagues advice and also bcos of some talking with the 2 bosses. Now, they are assigning me to bond desk. Third product i'll be learning. By the way, i have also been registered for exam. Will be going for the course starts this end of June and the month of July. So, estimated the exam should be schedule at end of July or early August.
At the same time, CoreVentus asked me for 2nd interview. I actually enjoyed doing the assignment. I actually quite like the job. Conference producer. Produce a whole conference all by yourself, with a given budget. You get to plan everything by yourself, your own speaker,etc. The pay is also good with commission. And, the best part is i get the chances to show my own ability. But, is a bit wrong timing. Cos, i couldn't just say go like that after i agree to join bond desk. And they have even pay my exam fee. What should i do now?
That's why i also a bit hesitated by what the changes means? Changes for going to bond desk or changes for entering a new industry?
But, i don't know what kind of changes it means. I have resigned twice. Take back the letter twice bcos of some colleagues advice and also bcos of some talking with the 2 bosses. Now, they are assigning me to bond desk. Third product i'll be learning. By the way, i have also been registered for exam. Will be going for the course starts this end of June and the month of July. So, estimated the exam should be schedule at end of July or early August.
At the same time, CoreVentus asked me for 2nd interview. I actually enjoyed doing the assignment. I actually quite like the job. Conference producer. Produce a whole conference all by yourself, with a given budget. You get to plan everything by yourself, your own speaker,etc. The pay is also good with commission. And, the best part is i get the chances to show my own ability. But, is a bit wrong timing. Cos, i couldn't just say go like that after i agree to join bond desk. And they have even pay my exam fee. What should i do now?
That's why i also a bit hesitated by what the changes means? Changes for going to bond desk or changes for entering a new industry?
Fear of Losing
I got the feeling that we couldn't last long. He said " In life, you have to learn to feel contented and appreciate what we have." Maybe he try to send the message that i'm too demanding??
But, i'm not. I'm not that demanding. Is not that i want to request anything from him. Just that, i like to feel pampered. I guess all the girls is the same like me, like to be pampered.But, each time when i talked to him and from the response he gave, i feel pain in my heart. I feel disappointed. As if you don't care anymore. But, you keep telling me, assuring me that you do care. But, your action doesn't make my feel so. I feel imbalance. I put too much priority in you. While, you only put me probably the 3rd place. I know that you is a person with ambition. But, if once a while, you make me feel important, how nice it would be?....But, i dunno know to convey that message to you. Cos each time, when i try to tell you about what i felt, your response is as if i tried to find an argument with, as if i tried to demand you to do somthing...But, do you know that actually, i just want to say it out, just want to tell you what i feel, just want you to listen. Thats all...Am i too demanding??
I really don't want to lose you. But i feel like i'm losing you. I feel myself lost the glow that attract you. I feel myself not able to catch your attention anymore. Just the matter of time. Sooner or later...Or is there miracle?? Maybe just this short period??
Can we be like lastime, when you make me feel i'm important and pampered??
You stop doing things that you did for me lastime...
You stop everything....
Was it because you knew i'm yours for sure??
Or was it because you don't feel worth it anymore to do somthg for me??
Suddenly, i feel so scared...
One moment, i feel like you are the one...
The next moment, i feel like i'm losing it...
Please stop making me insecure...
But, i'm not. I'm not that demanding. Is not that i want to request anything from him. Just that, i like to feel pampered. I guess all the girls is the same like me, like to be pampered.But, each time when i talked to him and from the response he gave, i feel pain in my heart. I feel disappointed. As if you don't care anymore. But, you keep telling me, assuring me that you do care. But, your action doesn't make my feel so. I feel imbalance. I put too much priority in you. While, you only put me probably the 3rd place. I know that you is a person with ambition. But, if once a while, you make me feel important, how nice it would be?....But, i dunno know to convey that message to you. Cos each time, when i try to tell you about what i felt, your response is as if i tried to find an argument with, as if i tried to demand you to do somthing...But, do you know that actually, i just want to say it out, just want to tell you what i feel, just want you to listen. Thats all...Am i too demanding??
I really don't want to lose you. But i feel like i'm losing you. I feel myself lost the glow that attract you. I feel myself not able to catch your attention anymore. Just the matter of time. Sooner or later...Or is there miracle?? Maybe just this short period??
Can we be like lastime, when you make me feel i'm important and pampered??
You stop doing things that you did for me lastime...
You stop everything....
Was it because you knew i'm yours for sure??
Or was it because you don't feel worth it anymore to do somthg for me??
Suddenly, i feel so scared...
One moment, i feel like you are the one...
The next moment, i feel like i'm losing it...
Please stop making me insecure...
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Touched Momentz...
The first time you waited me for two long hours in the car, with your pending work at home, and yet u never scolded...
Your first touching message :
First i see you,
then i like you,
then i miss you,
then i love you,
then i continue miss you...
how leh baby?
You put 3 love symbol at ur messenger and told me that :
3 love symbol mean
Love U,
Love my Family +
Love my Life!
Equally important to me in every day, each minutes and second!
Whenever i get scolded and bad day in the office, i will nag at u and pour all my heart out at you. Thanks for listen to my complaints for more than 2 hours and for so many times. You never get bored or stopped me for complaining. Yet, you always console me and giving me advice. Thanks for being there for me...
Thanks for sacrificing ur sleep jus to wake up earlier just to drive me in time to work. End up,u having headache for not enough sleep and cant concentrate on your work in the office for the day.Sorry for make you so tiring.
Thanks for giving me more than i can give u. Thanks for loving me and hope that you can love me now and forever...
We used to quarrel and have misunderstanding with each other. I feel so sad whenever you misunderstand my words and sometimes i feel so sad after you describe your situation, because it sounds like i have been giving you a hard time. Really wish that i'm not that bad and can treat u equally well like u treated me...
Love u.....
Thanks for being by my side.
Your first touching message :
First i see you,
then i like you,
then i miss you,
then i love you,
then i continue miss you...
how leh baby?
You put 3 love symbol at ur messenger and told me that :
3 love symbol mean
Love U,
Love my Family +
Love my Life!
Equally important to me in every day, each minutes and second!
Whenever i get scolded and bad day in the office, i will nag at u and pour all my heart out at you. Thanks for listen to my complaints for more than 2 hours and for so many times. You never get bored or stopped me for complaining. Yet, you always console me and giving me advice. Thanks for being there for me...
Thanks for sacrificing ur sleep jus to wake up earlier just to drive me in time to work. End up,u having headache for not enough sleep and cant concentrate on your work in the office for the day.Sorry for make you so tiring.
Thanks for giving me more than i can give u. Thanks for loving me and hope that you can love me now and forever...
We used to quarrel and have misunderstanding with each other. I feel so sad whenever you misunderstand my words and sometimes i feel so sad after you describe your situation, because it sounds like i have been giving you a hard time. Really wish that i'm not that bad and can treat u equally well like u treated me...
Love u.....
Thanks for being by my side.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sien..sienz...sien!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lost myself, lost direction, lost confidence....
Dunno wat else gonna do, wat else gonna happen,
Boring job life...
Felt lonely in the office, no one to talk to, felt leftout, i cant join in the conversation...just dunno why....
Bad feelings, make me dun feel lik coming to work.....
Resign letter oso tried before, but still stuck here, cant prove myself to do better...
Dunno whr to start off....
Maybe it doesn't suits me after all....
I was yawning all the while in the office...
Waiting for the hours to passby as soon as possible...
Waiting for 5pm evryday....
Felt restricted, dare not to do anythg wthout confronting with boss and seniors 1st....even out for lunch wth friends or whatever oso feel like i dun hv the freedom anymore...
Do everythg oso feel lik myself as a mice,hiding here and hiding there....do this scared get scolding, do that scared i done somthg wrong.....
Do everythg seems to be wrong and get scolding......
I dun wan to stay here anymore.....
What is my future direction??
What should i do??
Dunno wat else gonna do, wat else gonna happen,
Boring job life...
Felt lonely in the office, no one to talk to, felt leftout, i cant join in the conversation...just dunno why....
Bad feelings, make me dun feel lik coming to work.....
Resign letter oso tried before, but still stuck here, cant prove myself to do better...
Dunno whr to start off....
Maybe it doesn't suits me after all....
I was yawning all the while in the office...
Waiting for the hours to passby as soon as possible...
Waiting for 5pm evryday....
Felt restricted, dare not to do anythg wthout confronting with boss and seniors 1st....even out for lunch wth friends or whatever oso feel like i dun hv the freedom anymore...
Do everythg oso feel lik myself as a mice,hiding here and hiding there....do this scared get scolding, do that scared i done somthg wrong.....
Do everythg seems to be wrong and get scolding......
I dun wan to stay here anymore.....
What is my future direction??
What should i do??
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Damn Frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!
Being confirmed!!! but was it a good thing???
I'm definitely not happy at all...
I'm depressed and get scolded every single day..
Was it my wrong or am not suitable to be a broker at all???
Sometimes, i feel so angry, whatever quarrel, bad mood they are in, all put it and scold it on me...thats what i felt...eventhough i dunno whether they scolded it for reason or not??
But, honestly i'm damn not happy here!!!!!!!!!!!Damn it!!!!!!!Fucker!!!!!!!!!!!!SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whenever i feel of saying no, i can't say it out, but just say yes and OK!!!...shit!!!!!!!!!
Am i a living doll???
Whatever things i did, is wrong, whether is by intention, or by coincidence or whatever???!!!Bullshit la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Each time, different situation came in and make me get scolded....but for them, is the same " You are not focus enough!!!You are not listening to us!!You are not following our advice!!!"
Bullshit la!!!I'm been trying hard to focus and keep track but mistake just always happens...
I'm sick of it!!!
I'm not suitable for this job!!!
I'm been craving for holidays or weekends everyday during work.
I'm been counting on the hours left before working hours ends.
What am i doing???Why i can't take control of myself whether to say what i like???
What am i still doing here???
I can't take it anymore!!!!!!
I'm definitely not happy at all...
I'm depressed and get scolded every single day..
Was it my wrong or am not suitable to be a broker at all???
Sometimes, i feel so angry, whatever quarrel, bad mood they are in, all put it and scold it on me...thats what i felt...eventhough i dunno whether they scolded it for reason or not??
But, honestly i'm damn not happy here!!!!!!!!!!!Damn it!!!!!!!Fucker!!!!!!!!!!!!SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whenever i feel of saying no, i can't say it out, but just say yes and OK!!!...shit!!!!!!!!!
Am i a living doll???
Whatever things i did, is wrong, whether is by intention, or by coincidence or whatever???!!!Bullshit la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Each time, different situation came in and make me get scolded....but for them, is the same " You are not focus enough!!!You are not listening to us!!You are not following our advice!!!"
Bullshit la!!!I'm been trying hard to focus and keep track but mistake just always happens...
I'm sick of it!!!
I'm not suitable for this job!!!
I'm been craving for holidays or weekends everyday during work.
I'm been counting on the hours left before working hours ends.
What am i doing???Why i can't take control of myself whether to say what i like???
What am i still doing here???
I can't take it anymore!!!!!!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
The Man By The Wall...
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window.The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up,he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind 's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days, weeks and months passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'
Epilogue:There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.
'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present .'
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window.The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up,he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind 's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days, weeks and months passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'
Epilogue:There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.
'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present .'
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I'm Still Feel Sucks......
Bad tempered...
Panicked when communicate with dealers on the box...
Write wrong contracts....
Really bad mood nowadays la....
Getting more nagging and complaining and vry bad tempered and unpolite....
Yesterday receive one sms that hurt my feelings vry much...
"YS,next time if u r not reli sure, pls dun promise for any outgoing tat ppl arrange like last time p.mlm case, n oso, pls respect others responsibility to u. as i promise to fetch u, i reserve a seat for u n reject s.leng.everytime reject someone at last minute wil make someone's plan gone de. u made me felt like nobody to fren wit. n beg someone to b my fren.anyway, s.leng follow me back. hope understand my dissatisfaction.as i felt, u just kick promise if u found another better one.but as i promise u, i need take responsible if i reject u.but u just suka suka fly aeroplane"
I never fly him aeroplane because he never really confirm with me that he is going to fetch me back hometown for CNY....so i ask someone else favour.....he never tell me the date that he is going back and never tell me tat he will fetch me...Suddenly, i'm framed by ppl like tat...And the sad part is, i'm being viewed as such kind of a person??...Really so dun understand me!!!!!!!!
Frustating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Working life is sucks as well....Everyday, i feel like dragging myself up from the bed to go to work....feel myself doing teribbly bad....
Evrydy feel lik wan to have a long holiday and need to find someone to express all the moody feel/stress from daily job....but i dun wan to do that cos will make ppl hate me more n more....everyone have their own problem, i shouldnt go n complain to them abt my problem anymore....is torturing ppl's ear....
But too bad, the only solution is here...writing this blog to express myself...but too busy and no time to online...i miss money market...that's the truth....
But, i hate money market as well cos i feel myself is doing good there and close a few deals ady....but they dun wan confirm me...
Had the feeling of applying for new job ady...but dun have the confident to submit the application because i dun really know whether that is a correct decision ma?? Am i such a stupid?? Or a coward??
Hope that this new RAT year will really brings better luck to me....But, luckily i have you to be around me and support me...Sorry for all the troubles i bring to you...and thanks for everything you did...
Panicked when communicate with dealers on the box...
Write wrong contracts....
Really bad mood nowadays la....
Getting more nagging and complaining and vry bad tempered and unpolite....
Yesterday receive one sms that hurt my feelings vry much...
"YS,next time if u r not reli sure, pls dun promise for any outgoing tat ppl arrange like last time p.mlm case, n oso, pls respect others responsibility to u. as i promise to fetch u, i reserve a seat for u n reject s.leng.everytime reject someone at last minute wil make someone's plan gone de. u made me felt like nobody to fren wit. n beg someone to b my fren.anyway, s.leng follow me back. hope understand my dissatisfaction.as i felt, u just kick promise if u found another better one.but as i promise u, i need take responsible if i reject u.but u just suka suka fly aeroplane"
I never fly him aeroplane because he never really confirm with me that he is going to fetch me back hometown for CNY....so i ask someone else favour.....he never tell me the date that he is going back and never tell me tat he will fetch me...Suddenly, i'm framed by ppl like tat...And the sad part is, i'm being viewed as such kind of a person??...Really so dun understand me!!!!!!!!
Frustating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Working life is sucks as well....Everyday, i feel like dragging myself up from the bed to go to work....feel myself doing teribbly bad....
Evrydy feel lik wan to have a long holiday and need to find someone to express all the moody feel/stress from daily job....but i dun wan to do that cos will make ppl hate me more n more....everyone have their own problem, i shouldnt go n complain to them abt my problem anymore....is torturing ppl's ear....
But too bad, the only solution is here...writing this blog to express myself...but too busy and no time to online...i miss money market...that's the truth....
But, i hate money market as well cos i feel myself is doing good there and close a few deals ady....but they dun wan confirm me...
Had the feeling of applying for new job ady...but dun have the confident to submit the application because i dun really know whether that is a correct decision ma?? Am i such a stupid?? Or a coward??
Hope that this new RAT year will really brings better luck to me....But, luckily i have you to be around me and support me...Sorry for all the troubles i bring to you...and thanks for everything you did...
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Tired and Lost......A bit Frustrating!!!
3 days in FOREX desks...
Very tiring....
Quote until i had sorethroat, compared to Money desk...the environment is totally different and i'm trying hard to adjust myself to adapt to it...
Back home at late nite, and sleep late but wakeup at 530am...
Tired...
I feel lost as well, no proper mentor to guide me...but ady prepared for these, because the working environment here, you need to be smart yourself to takecare and dun let others bully you...
Street smart?? I'm not...
I may be easy to bullied but at least i still know how to protect myself, won't drop too badly..
I know your style, i know you are power addicted....
Put me in this desk only want me to stay under you...
You will always makesure i dun get the equal chance that you get from him...
But, i believe that others can see...
I'm not as smart as you but at least, i'm not that bad...
Now, i understand why J says she is lost and fed up...
Is not good feel to be compared against a person that always have the power to influence the decision maker...
But now, i should wait and wait and wait.....just to be confirmed....
Yangggggggggg......yangggg.......yanggg!!!!!!!!!
Very tiring....
Quote until i had sorethroat, compared to Money desk...the environment is totally different and i'm trying hard to adjust myself to adapt to it...
Back home at late nite, and sleep late but wakeup at 530am...
Tired...
I feel lost as well, no proper mentor to guide me...but ady prepared for these, because the working environment here, you need to be smart yourself to takecare and dun let others bully you...
Street smart?? I'm not...
I may be easy to bullied but at least i still know how to protect myself, won't drop too badly..
I know your style, i know you are power addicted....
Put me in this desk only want me to stay under you...
You will always makesure i dun get the equal chance that you get from him...
But, i believe that others can see...
I'm not as smart as you but at least, i'm not that bad...
Now, i understand why J says she is lost and fed up...
Is not good feel to be compared against a person that always have the power to influence the decision maker...
But now, i should wait and wait and wait.....just to be confirmed....
Yangggggggggg......yangggg.......yanggg!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, January 3, 2008
FOREX here i come!!!!!!!!!
Yes....
Starting next Monday, i will be moving to FOREX desk...
More challenging desk and i hope the management there is different from Money desk...
And the leader there is better at training new staff and ofcourse he is more protective and fight for his subordinates...
But, he is also more strict...
Need to forgone my beauty sleep liao...
Need to slept earlier and maybe back late...
Cos need to entertain and meet new dealers...
Need to come to work around 730am or earlier...until when i'm familiar and can do thgs by myself
Need to stop MSN and surfing the internet liao cos my new head not gonna give me that permission...
Dunno whether i can do well there, be able to learn and do things fast??
But i'm excited of joining this new desk...
I believe that i'll be able to get confirmed earlier here..
Wish me luck and wish me good..
I can do better and earn better...
Recently feel something extra in the life...
I dunno if it is right choice or not, but, i will give it a try...
Gotta learn driving, hope during tis CNY holiday, i can drive and fetch mum for shopping...
Hehe, you promise to teach me drive, dun fly me airplane oh!!
Soon, i gonna have a car of my own....
Things looks better and the sky looks clearer...
Cheers =>
Starting next Monday, i will be moving to FOREX desk...
More challenging desk and i hope the management there is different from Money desk...
And the leader there is better at training new staff and ofcourse he is more protective and fight for his subordinates...
But, he is also more strict...
Need to forgone my beauty sleep liao...
Need to slept earlier and maybe back late...
Cos need to entertain and meet new dealers...
Need to come to work around 730am or earlier...until when i'm familiar and can do thgs by myself
Need to stop MSN and surfing the internet liao cos my new head not gonna give me that permission...
Dunno whether i can do well there, be able to learn and do things fast??
But i'm excited of joining this new desk...
I believe that i'll be able to get confirmed earlier here..
Wish me luck and wish me good..
I can do better and earn better...
Recently feel something extra in the life...
I dunno if it is right choice or not, but, i will give it a try...
Gotta learn driving, hope during tis CNY holiday, i can drive and fetch mum for shopping...
Hehe, you promise to teach me drive, dun fly me airplane oh!!
Soon, i gonna have a car of my own....
Things looks better and the sky looks clearer...
Cheers =>
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