Reach Home Today....

Just reach home today....
The feeling is .....dunno how to say??...
First, tired of carrying the luggage from my college walk to bus stop and till home...
Even though, i ady put just all the ringan ringan things...but still feel so heavy ah...my hand and shoulder oso aching la....just carry one luggage nia...

Shld be wondering how come my last sem liao...so few things??...actually need to thanks TF lor...help me brings a few big and heavy luggages...
Been helping me a lot for these 3 years...really dunno how to thank him....such a nice and real gentleman....I oso dunno how come i get so lucky to know a friend like him...always smiling face eventhough everytime i just bring him trouble and never get to help him back...thks very very much la....TF!!

Spend the whole day cleaning my bed, my table (full of dust), my room and unpacking my bags.....

Dinner today was splendid...very miss mum's cooking lor...but then, realise that mum is aging...getting old....
She complain about chest pain...hand ache...leg ache...old ppl's sickness....i felt so helpless becos i can't do anythg or give any advice to ease her pain.
Suddenly feel mum is getting older while i'm still unemployed, unable to do anythg for her, unable to make her more comfortable, unable to let her retired earlier....

Sometimes, really wished that i have an older brother or an older sister....then, at least i won't feel such a heavy responsibility...the responsibility of taking care of mum and giving a better life to my family...
Even though, they never request anythg from me..but, i still feel that i have the responsibility to do so...tired when thinking about how to fast fast make my family go a better life especially mum...Wish to give her a trip to oversea...she wish to go China...when will i get to have enuf $$ to bring her for a tour there??....Mother's Day coming this sunday.....i love u mum!!..But, i never said it out to you...and never buy any present for you or do anythg special for you....but, really hope i can did somthg for you real soon....

CL said that i'm over protective of myself...said that i'm unwilling to share thgs wth others, my stories,etc...is true...i admit that...the ppl in uni knew very little about me and my background cos i seldom talk about it...But, i dun feel that is wrong, if the person really sincere in being my fren, why shld he/she ask or know so much about my family and my background??...as long as they like me and my personality..thats enough,isn't it?

I dun like to talk about my family is bcos i dun wan ppl to take me as wat backgrd i have...nowadays, ppl so care abt status, about who u r, wat kind of connection u have....i just want a fair competition...i dun wan ppl judge me by tat way...i wan them to judge me just based on me...is tat wrong??...But, i dun care anymore...if u guys dun udstd me...then is up to you...i still have a bunch of high school schoolmates that really knows and udstd me..i miss u guys....PE,SL,SL,SK & ST....u guys are the best that never leave me alone even some long and many years...still there for me whenever i'm sad and in trouble...