Please God, Guide Me...

These few days really felt myself lost and floating...
Unable to make decision and dunno who should i go to...
There is always some discouragement and some harsh words that make my faith tremble...

Aunt pass away..that is fast and unpredictable...

I resigned.HR accepted my resignation and confirmed that my last day will be on 12 October. Went to a one-day training on the new job, like attending a lecture. I like it bcos i totally need to learn a lot.But at the same time, i'm afraid.Can i handle the job?I have very very very little knowledge about it.After attending the training, i feel like i need to go to a public library and borrow lots of books and come back and read.Is just like back to the school-day, doing assignment time when u need to do some study and research from the very basic concept to understand the whole thing.That is interesting. But, i also scared from the way they talk, fast and speedy during quoting and speak lenghty words in short period,fast but clear.Can i do that?

At the same time, i need to find solutions to a lot a lot of questions.First, i need two hours to reach my new workplace from my current stayplace.Everyone is advicing me to move.I know that is true.But to where?Everyone suggest one place: Wangsa Maju. But at the same time, everyone is giving me the same discouragement, by telling me that the place is not a good place to stay, telling me is dirty, is crowded and is dangerous. So what is the suggestions?Is like you a giving me a suggestions and at the same time, u are giving objections to that suggestions.So, what should i do??

Next, i have a conversation with a fren. She is like suddenly giving me solution. When i thought that will be the best idea, everything will be settle, suddenly, turn out that suggestions receive same thing...a lot of objections. ST suggested me to buy a motor, ride to nearer LRT station, at least save a bit of the time spend on KTM and on walking. I was about to accept that idea. Then, everyone else is telling me not a wise decision.Is dangerous. What happens if it rain?What happens when you met snatch thief?What happens when you ride at nite?All sort of stories came out, making me worry and started to think of NO to the motor idea.
So what should i do?

Mum is totally disagree with my resignation. She scold at me.Said that i shouldn't have resigned now.Should have wait till December after get bonus pay. Said that i never think of new workplace, whether was it convenient or not?Said that i never think in details about everything. I was calling to discuss about possible solutions but end up i get scold and leaving me felt more distracted because i started to think whether have i make the right decision?whether i started to regret?

Sometimes, i really admired those that have brother and sister by their side. At least, someone is there can help you make decision.I'm helpless now.And felt that i myself have seek all these troubles, if i hadn't resigned, hadn't changed job, everything will just stay constant and no troubles, no worries and no need to think so much about these...rite??So, am i a fool??to seek all these troubles??

Sometimes, i just feel that i want to go home...back AT...i'm tired of life like this..keep on handling decision, and everything on ur own, bear everything on my own..But, i'm just here 3 mths.So easily give up??

God, please guide me...I'm scared.Realli am...